January 2010
5 posts
12975.) I tell people that I stay awake until the...
August 2009
19 posts
“You do know that when you have a girlfriend you don’t fuck other girls...”
– kaitlyn jernigan,
I like when you bring up little things we've...
WAIT- they don't love you the way i do.
One day you fall for this boy. And he touches you...
“Does it usually take this long for you to come back to me? It feels like years...”
– this is to you.
and the worst part is you just expect me back
There is no trying, no second guessing if I still need you. You know I’ll come running back into your arms with mine wide open, and I’ll forget. Call me cute, and I’ll forget. I’m yours again. For now, for now until I’m no longer good enough. And I hate this fucking game. I’m breaking down, I’m giving in yet again but this time I see it happening, I see it clearly. Tell me why I do this, but tell...
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And I hate the fact that my heart doesn’t grow And I hate the smell of cigarette smoke And I hate old movies unless they make me cry
And I hate the jerk that you’ve turned out to be And I hate the sand that holds back the seas And I hate the fact that you don’t love me for me
And I hate the feel of rock bottom That’s when life hurts the most And I just, I wish it could be over But it...
I woke up the same as I did everyday, but...
“I always wonder what my parents would do if they knew what I was really like.”
– I guess if I ever feel like blowing their fucking minds I’ll pull out a few secrets and stories.
so true.
When you first meet somebody, you find out they like you. First of all, a friend of a friend of theirs says he or she really, really likes you and it kills you, floors you, sends you to the ground, you’ve got to pick yourself up off the ground; then you get their phone number and you call them up, right? And you say “yeah, that’s a really great phone conversation, can I see you some time?” And...
i dont get it
No matter how hard I try, I can’t get you out of my mind. Nonstop. Either that or I’m not trying as hard as I should be. It’s difficult, you know? Everything reminds me of you. I know it’s hard for you too, I understand why we can’t talk. But I need to. I want to. I shouldn’t need you like this but it’s just too difficult. Am I really this vulnerable without you? I’m not used to this. I’d like to...
July 2009
22 posts
It freaks me out when I realize that the future...
Everyone is living in their own fabricated universe that will end at any point in time. They have a voice inside their mind that narrates their life in their own world and once they’re gone, the voice will vanish. I don’t know much about the afterlife or much about Heaven and Hell but it’s weird to think that life isn’t eternal. It’s hard to grasp the concept of not living forever.
These are my fucking cliche feelings.
I could tell by the tone of your voice that something was wrong. I assumed the worst and I was right. Now my heart feels as if it’s sunk to the pit of my stomach. My stomach feels as if it’s forcing all the acid up my intestines. I’ve cried to the point of throwing up. I’ve cried to the point of not being able to breathe. I’ve cried to the point that no more tears will come out but I feel the...
“I’ll pretend that you mean the weather when you ask me how things are. I’ll say...”
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“You need to stop being so concerned with collecting beautiful things and start...”
– this is for you
It's wierd when you read old conversations.
The feelings rush back to you, you reminsce, you go over every little thing that happened on that day, and then how you felt. Finally, you realize what you’re reading was a portion of the past and then the feelings disappear. I never gave any fucking effort. I’m sorry.
“She had not known the weight until she felt the freedom.”
– Nathaniel Hawthorne, The Scarlet letter
So long comes love
Boy: i love you to death.
Girl: if you only knew.
“We danced until the night
became a brand new day
Two lovers playing scenes...”
– Neil Diamond, September Morn
The night gets old.
My mind has exploded onto the four walls of my bedroom. Thoughts, words, images, and memories. At this point, I don’t make any sense. The use of sarcasm is constant. Insomnia is a bitch. A cold-hearted bitch. I tried to sleep but instead I laid awake in bed, alone. It makes me a bit scared. I did not want to talk to you, you were a faint memory of mine. Not important enough of a memory. Fuck this...
The Game.
You walked three miles to my house in the blazing sun just to see me for five minutes, that’s love. You held my hair back when I puked and kissed me right after and told me how worried you were, that’s love. I trust that you wouldn’t do anything with her but you do dumb shit to make me question us. Sometimes I think you’re just oblivious and other times I think you know what you did was wrong....
“To be honest, I thought I’d be one of those druggies who’d be drinking every...”
– Sean Nguy
Hello I am a hypocrite.
I can admit it, but please don’t judge me. And don’t throw my fucking past in my face.